I always want to learn more and grow as an individual each day. My purpose in life is to be the best version of me, and I believe that entails me getting a clear understanding of who I am as a person and what I think is worth my efforts. Also, I must try my best to be accepting and understanding of others and the inevitable differences among us.
Two years ago I was 18 going on 19. College and adulting were new to me, and I secretly hoped to be one of the cool kids (seriously overrated btw). Since then, I have become a better person. My personal development and emotional growth have made me more aware of myself and others around me.
“The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.” ~Marcel Proust
I now know that I am responsible for my own happiness. My happiness is not dependent on someone else. I now do things that make me happy and comfortable in my own skin. I live a bit selfish (This, of course, is without stepping on someone’s toes or making them feel bad). I am 20 after all, I get to be selfish with my desires for a little while longer. I, once in a while, do succumb to special requests to make someone else’s day. I live one day at a time as opposed to worrying about the future that I might not get to have. I might die, after all, sad but true.
I care not what people think about me. I am as authentic as Tiffany can get. Society does not dictate what I should look like, how I should behave or dress. I am working towards a joyful, purpose-filled life with great people and do awesome things. I know what I value most in life, and as long as I respect myself to work towards them, society has no holds on me.
I also am more level-headed than I was a few years earlier. Lately, I remain calm, collected, and calculated. Years ago I would be fussing to watch debacles as they spiral out of control in my presence; I now prefer to be as far away from the drama as I possibly can. This is why I like my house, it is a drama free zone. I talk less, I am more observant, and I move in silence. I prefer to cherish and seize the moments as they happen and keep people guessing.
I am in a whole new headspace where I choose my battles wisely. My whole thing in life is that if someone or something is not contributing to making my life better in some way, shape or form, then it has no business there. I have no time or space for toxicity, I simply can’t deal. No BS.
Body wise, I am still a skinny girl from Jamaica with the hope of gaining some weight! I am also more comfortable with it because people would always tease my about my small frame, but hey I am and was never mad about it. Comfortable in my own skin.
I hope that my journey through life continues to inspire me to:
- be more adventurous,
- just a bit less cynical,
- progress in my thoughts and understanding of people and the world and;
- flourish in my future endeavors.
I guess I shall find out in the next two to three years, should I be alive.
To this day I still take shit from no one, I stay true to myself. But, I am always willing to listen to the other side. What are your changes like? Let me know.
Until next time…